Tuesday, February 10, 2009

A Little Behind...



*Sigh* I'm feeling a little behind. Actually, I'm feeling a LOT behind, but the "little behind" was definitely a cuter picture!

I have not posted here since Christmas, but it is not just my blogging that I have fallen behind with, it's everything! I have never been a good juggler of tasks, and I often find it challenging to balance my life, choosing instead to channel my energies in only one or two directions at a time. And yet there are always so many things I want to, and need to do at any given time. When I keep up with the housekeeping, I fall behind with my bears, and when I am focused on my creative endeavors, household responsibilities get ignored. When I get my excercise in, I sacrifice getting the sleep I need. When I focus on my teaching career, I find I spend less time enjoying my sons and husband, and when I focus on family, I can't do as much planning at home for my classes. Things always seem to swing one way then the other. But right now, somehow, I have managed to fall behind with everything. I mean absolutely everything! I don't know how I got to this, and I'm not sure how to get back on track. I'm feeling frustrated with myself, depressed,and overwhelmed. *Sigh* I'm feeling a little behind.

7 comments:

Aleta said...

You're not the only one. I'm right there with you. (sigh) Perhaps it's because we truly WANT to do it all. The time and the want are not matching up these days. Sending you a heartfelt hug,
Aleta

Daphne said...

Girlie, I TOTALLY understand! You are not alone! I can't figure out how to do it all yet...I just keep trying and getting frustrated and further behind!!! When I figure it out I'll let ya know!! (Don't hold your breath!) Huge Hugs to you!!!

Ellen said...

Dear Tami. I totally understand what you are talking about. I am in the same boat, well....I was...I decided to let go of all schedules (I could not stick to them anyway) and just see what I can do on each given day. I have been trying to learn how to focus my attention and prioritize a bit. Some weeks I can't post much on my blog, because my orders need to be finished. I exercise during lunch break (I take my lunch on my walk) and I have learned to plan my day for just 30 percent. I used to plan it for 200 % and that did not work too well. Things will always come along to mess up your schedule. The most important thing I have learned (see, shingles are good for something) is to give up the idea that I should be able to do everything perfect. I of course don't know if this applies to you as well, but I have a feeling that it does :o)
Many understanding hugs my friend,
Ellen

Laura Lynn said...

Tami I certainly understand what you mean!!!!! I've been feeling like that a lot myself lately... I actually did a quick search for part time housekeepers just out of curiosity.. (hmm... how many bears will that cost?) ;)

HUGE hugs!!!!!!!
Laura Lynn

All Bear said...

But you obviously still have your sense of humour, so all is not lost! Sending positive thoughts your way Tami ... keep smiling!

Tami Eveslage said...

Gosh, thank you All for your kind and encouraging words. It is nice to know that I am not alone. I am slowing working this out, letting some things go.(So hard to do!!!)

And, Paula, yes I do can still laugh at myself and that really goes a long way.

Hugs to you all!

Sarah said...

Oh Tami, I hear you! I've been trying to juggle a lot of balls and some are still in the air! I've just stopped cleaning the house and come up stairs to do some work to a bear, with some housework undone. It's good to know we all feel the same.

Heartfelt hugs, Sarah x